Healing

After several weeks of intense emotional rollercoaster ride, everything seems to be slowly falling into place. We have come to accept our faults and the inevitable state of our relationship. It is definitely difficult to wake up every morning and suddenly realize that we're alone again. But being alone isn't THAT bad. We're discovering new things about ourselves that's helping us heal and become better people. We're also re-discovering things we used to love doing but has been pushed aside eversince we got together. I'm also very happy that we have overcome the anger and spite.

So, we're back to square one. I'm back to square one. But like the cliche goes... it's not the destination that matters, it's the journey.

ABYSS

I close my eyes and remember
the feeling of my despair
the ache of my heart
and the pain of my soul

I try to scream for freedom
I try to cry for help
but the empty room
only brings echoes and no answers

I reach for you
to pull me out of this nightmare
to bring me back to reality
but you push me back in the darkness

I hear you whisper to me
this is the reality
then you hold my handand close your eyes

Together we fall.

ABYSS

This poem is for our Poetry Reading session tomorrow for our Creativity and Intuition class. It's been awhile since I last wrote a poem so please bear with me.

I close my eyes and remember
the feeling of my despair
the ache of my heart
and the pain of my soul

I try to scream for freedom
I try to cry for help
but the empty room
only brings echoes and no answers

I reach for you
to pull me out of this nightmare
to bring me back to reality
but you push me back in the darkness

I hear you whisper to me
this is the reality
then you hold my hand
and close your eyes

Together we fall.

Prayers of the Faithful

For our Creativity and Intuition class, we made a film to unleash our creative side. Having been an Entablado member for several years, my inclination was towards socially-oriented story lines. Our film was entitled Prayers of the Faithful. It's a 9 minute film about four women who seem to live a different life in front of God and in front of the people around them. There was Lisa, a bored housewife; Rowena, a secretary by day and a wild child by night; Jenny, a molested high school student; and Flora, the prostitute with a conscience.

The highlight of the film was seeing my groupmates come out of their shell and do the stuff they did. Alisa did Rowena and she did some booty-shaking that could blow your mind! Jaraiza had a rape scene with Ked, her boyfriend. Imagine Jaraiza letting a guy on top of her?! It was amazing.

And guess who did the prostitute?! Maybe I won't go into the details of what I did. Suffice it to say that it was very believable. Thanks to one of our exchange students from Denmark, Kenneth who did the 'love scenes' with me.

Johnny Delgado was there to critique our works. He said, truth about ourselves should come out to make it believable.

After doing our film, I'm scared of what that means.

Footnote: Thanks to all those who helped make the film a success and those who went to support us during the showing. My love and gratitude!

Touch Move

People should be careful when in anger. Words can be said that are impossible to take back. And words said in anger usually hurt the most. In just a single breath, six years worth of relationship can be thrown away.

Even when you try to take it back... things may never be the same again.

Just Because

There are moments in our lives when we have to make decisions that no matter how uncertain the outcome will be, we jump into it anyway because we have to... because we suddenly find ourselves older and wiser... because we have to think of our future... because we're not getting any younger.

Others may get hurt along the way and they might not understand it right now. But eventually, when everything starts falling into place, they'll be thankful.