THE FIRST CUT IS THE DEEPEST - Sheryl Crow

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know...

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
If you want I'll try to love again, (try)
Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know...

Oohhh,
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
But when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cuz if you want I'll try to love again
(Try to love again, try to love again)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know, oohhh....

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
When it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed
When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst

Oohhh, the first cut is the deepest
Baby I know (baby I know)
The first cut is the deepest
Try to love again...

Just another day...

I spent the whole day sleeping. Just how I wanted to spend my birthday. Great huh?! (can you feel my sarcasm???) Tini did visit me with chocolates. He also went with me to mass. Then off to dinner with my mom, brother, and his girlfriend. Other than that, it was just another day. I realized I'm considered to be in my late twenties already. The thought depresses me even more. When I was a kid I used to think people in their twenties were old. I guess I never realized that eventually I'll reach that age too.

The truth is... I'm really thankful I have another year... another chance to do great things and be a better person. It only means there's still many things I have to do and there are exciting things in store for me. I'm still trying to think positive. I'm sure there's still a silver lining somewhere out there.

Sore High!

Ako Atenista??? Hindi noh?!!!

Win or lose, it's the school we choose raw... sana minsan WIN naman at di laging lose!

It's J.D. Fortune!

Rockstar INXS just ended. Migs was eliminated the first round. I think he wasn't bad boy enough for them. The showdown with the band came down to J.D. and Marty. And in the end... it was J.D. I just hope the band can handle his volatile personality.

Sigh! Another reality show finished. I hear American Idol is starting in a month or so.

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I caught the Kim Possible movie on Disney Channel, So The Drama. Finally saw Kim and Ron get together. So sweet! They kissed in the end!

I love cartoons!

RESIGNATION LETTER

I found this in Friendster and I thought it was a nice read.

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as
an adult.

I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because
you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all I knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, and it didn't bother me, because I didn't know what I didn't know and I didn't care. All I knew was to be happy because I was blissfully unaware of all the things that should make me worry or upset.

I want to think the world is fair.

That everyone is honest and good.

I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again. I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more
days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones. I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.

So . . . here's my checkbook and my car-keys, my credit card bills and my 401K statements. I am officially resigning from adulthood.

And if you want to discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first, cause...

......"Tag! You're it."

Clumsy... or Cursed???

I don't think a couple of months can go by without something weird happening to me. Case in point... last friday after a night of booze I fell on my butt while taking a shower. No, I wasn't drunk. In my naked glory I was on my back on my bathroom floor. Lucky me I didn't really hurt my back but my butt was slightly bruised and I had to walk like a duck for a couple of days. Lucky me too that I didn't hit my head coz I was inches away from hitting the wall.

The year isn't over yet and I already had shingles last January, bitten by my dog last May, and now a slight accident. Oh, I wonder what happens next!

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Final three in Rockstar INXS: Migs Ayesa, J.D. Fortune, and Marty Casey! Tomorrow at 930am (Phil time) will be the finale.

ROSIE DUNNE by Cecelia Ahern

Rosie and Alex are destined for one another, and everyone seems to know it but them. Best friends since childhood, their relationship gets closer by the day, until Alex gets the news that his family is leaving Dublin and moving to Boston: At 17, Rosie and Alex have just started to see each other in a more romantic light. Devastated, the two make plans for Rosie to apply to colleges in the U.S. She gets into Boston University, Alex gets into Harvard, and everything is falling into place, when on the eve of her departure, Rosie gets news that will change their lives forever: She's pregnant by a boy she'd gone out with while on the rebound from Alex. Her dreams for college, Alex, and a glamorous career dashed, Rosie stays in Dublin to become a single mother, while Alex pursues a medical career and a new love in Boston. But destiny is a funny thing, and in this novel, structured as a series of clever e-mails, letters, notes, and a trail of missed opportunities, Alex and Rosie find out that fate isn't done with them yet.

I'm excited to read this book but I'm scared of what I'll find.

Misery loves company

Coffee tastes best with a friend and a little misery. Ever since Starbucks opened here in Marikina it's been the place of choice for me and my girlfriends to share our life stories. A quick call to each other or a text..."Libre ka? Coffee naman tayo. Starbucks?" simply means... "I desprately need someone to tak to!" and an impromptu gimik has greater chances of pushing through. And yes, we're willing to pay a hundred bucks for coffee which actually just costs twenty pesos to make. Nevertheless, the company is priceless.

Hmm... wonder why we never talked about our problems over beer?

Depressed and slightly Suicidal

A girl's companion on a lonely monday afternoon...

I had to get out of the house yesterday afternoon. The loneliness and depression was really getting to me. I'm still unemployed and my birthday is fast approaching. Getting older and still a bum is making me really miserable! And there are other things happening in my life which also isn't going as well as I hope it would. So, I drove to Tapa King in front of Eastwood and ordered comfort food... Banana Cobbler (with FIC). And while the rain poured, I also poured my thoughts and feelings in my journal. Whenever I feel this way, there's an uncontrollable need to write. As if writing down nonsensical words would ease all the pain.

For a couple of hours I did feel better. Well, it also helped that I did some shopping too. I got a brown Boho skirt with belt, a silvery sash, and two capri sweat pants for working out. Today, I also bought a navy blue shirt. It's for thursday's Ateneo-DLSU game.

Sigh! Life!

Blabberings on music, t.v., et al...

Since I'm desprately trying to get my mind off things, I keep myself busy watching t.v. and downloading music (but this is bad! NO to piracy!).

Since I left the music industry I've noticed a surge of really good local bands and singers. I'm really very picky when it comes to OPMs. We have really good artists but they get stuck singing remakes and revivals. Among the relatively new ones I really like Kitchie Nadal (Wag Mong Sasabihin, Same Ground). My favorite bands of the moment are Hale (Broken Sonnet, The Day You Said Goodnight), Cueshe (Stay), Session Road (Suntok Sa Buwan, Leaving You), and SpongeCola (Gemini, Dragonfly, Neon, She Don't Care). I've been gone for quite sometime so I have yet to update myself to other songs.

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The O.C. is back for its third season! I'm so excited to watch the first episode. Sigh! Oh Seth! Oh Seth!

Other than The O.C., I've been watching Rockstar INXS. I just got hooked. Last episode, Migs (he's a filipino who grew up in Australia and now living in London) had a mediocre performance compared to the others but he wasn't in the bottom three. I guess even though he's barely a pinoy all the pinoys in the world still voted for him.

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I'm trying my best to get tickets for thursday's Ateneo-La Salle game. It's our last game for the season before the semis. I'm sure it's gonna be one helluva game.

FALL TO PIECES by Avril Lavigne

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way I'd never get over you
Today's the day I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

Chorus:
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Coz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one, I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Coz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

ALL FLIP-FLOPS

My Havaianas

Yesterday, I was in flip-flops heaven! I visited the House of Havaiana here in the Philippines. It's called ALL FLIP-FLOPS found at the 3rd floor of Glorietta 3. I did try so hard to stop myself from buying a pair. After all, three pairs of Havaianas is a tad too much already. But four??? But I wanted one with the Brazilian flag and the yellow and the blue looked so cute on my newly pedicured feet that I just couldn't resist. After all, a girl can't really have enough Havaianas.

I know someone who has ten pairs so maybe having four isn't that bad.

In less than a year I've accumulated this much Havaianas. You can tell they've all served me well by how much grime is on them.


Flip-flops addict!

But my collection grew even more when I went to Canada. The brown floral one was from H&M; black and hot pink with hibiscus print were both from Garbage, a clothing store also in Canada.

Now I get blisters wearing regular shoes.

I'm thinking if I could find a company that would let me wear fip-flops all the time...

The Workforce Be With You!

Today I had my first job interview. The company was in realty and they needed an in-house sales manager.

In my head, I imagined my first interview after MBA differently. For one, I thought I would be confident in stating my desired salary. But I couldn't say it! Maybe because I felt I wasn't worth THAT much... regardless I spent tons on my MBA. But we were taught to be ruthless... to be capitalistic bastards... so with a squeeky voice I told the general manager my desired salary.

"Would you consider anything less?" she asked.

"As of now, no." I said trying to keep a straight face.

Then another head hunter friend of my mom called me up to ask about jobs I preferred.

1. Marketing or Sales for consumer products.
2. Marketing or Sales for telecommunication companies.

"How about banks?"

"Well, then that's my number three." as in last resort, I thought.

She said there was an opening for management trainee for this consumer company (name withheld) but they were only looking for dean's listers. Kung ang pagkakaroon ng boyfriend ay di sukatan ng kagandahan... sa aming paaralan (AIM) ang pagiging dean's lister ay di rin sukatan ng katalinuhan. Sukatan lang ng abilidad manggago ng mga guro!

But of course I didn't say that.

She said she'll be sending my resume to a bank needing a business strategist. Shit! Am I that desperate already?

"Oh, that job sounds interesting. Yes, please send my resume!"

Zara is opening in October. Need money ASAP!

I feel like a sell-out! But, my need to shop is greater.